Well there is not much to know about me only that im having alot of problems right now with my boyfriend and its making me so freaking depressed. I think i broke his heart and i wish i would have never done that because i love him so much and he doesn't understand what i feel for him. He means more then anything in the world to me and i would die for him. I love him so much...but he doesn't beileve a word i say now because of what ive done to him. We got along so well until i ruined everything between us. He hasn't answered any of my calls or text messaged me back since a couple days ago. I hate myself for ruining our relationship. He made me feel so bad by the way he talked to me over the fone. I felt like killing myself yesterday. He told me he was going to propose and that he was ready to be in a serious relationship. But, people tell me different. They tell me that im 14 i should have fun while i can and while im young. And hes 17 but i dont know what to think about this whole situation.Its hard for me not to cry while im writing this......I broke his heart and hurt someone that was very dear to me. And i will never forgive myself for that either. Its a sin i will always have and no amtter what i wont be able to get rid of all the pain i caused him and how much it tore us apart even further. What should I Do? What should I say? I still want to be with him. And he still loves me but he cant trust me and i understand why. And i dont blame him. I hate myself right now more than anything. My weakness is breaking someones heart. I hate breaking someones heart because someone else tells me to. People tell me different. But Im happy when i was with him. when i kissed him and so much more. Nobody would understand why i love him so much. But if they were in my position right now, they would feel the same way, they would cry over and over everynight just thinking about him and how i hurt him. Breaking someones heart is the worst thing you could do. He never did anything wrong, Its all my fault. I ruin everything. I just know i do. nobody cares about me. They treat me different now. =(

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